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i wore jeans...

Today was a day for laundry and play dates...and realization.

i felt very accomplished today...laundry is almost all done. all 9 loads of it. but i do know that when i wake up, there will be more, but it is just a small yay for me.

the girls and i had a play date with lish and her girls. im sure delaney and ruby enjoyed themselves, and i needed it too. i love getting together with other girls about their age. its so interesting to see my kids get so involved with pretending. it makes me remember playing like that. what happens to adults that make us loose this gift? i wish for one day that i could honestly think i was sleeping beauty...and i ate marshmallows all day and rode a horse named buttercup. how wonderful? what an awesome escape from reality. i think that people would be happier as a whole, that we had play time. take an hour an afternoon, dress up like a princess, or ninja...and get down. i know that it would be a welcome stress reliever.

i wore jeans today too. kind of amazing for me. most of the time, i just hang out around the house in yoga pants. im a large fan of comfort, so when im going out somewhere new, with jeans on...its a big deal. so, another yay for me.

i had so many conversations with lish tonight about the kids growing up. just around the corner comes school. i have these little moments in the day, with the fact that my kids are growing up, kind of slaps me in the face.

today it was....seeing ruby in lip gloss....

nothing too substantial...but for some reason it got to me today.

questions have been brought up by them over the last couple of weeks, that have been so hard to handle. the big thing going on with my family and friends lately has been divorce. try to explain that to a three year old that its possible for people to not be in love anymore was just devastating. its sad to see a small amount of beautiful ignorance leave everyday. i knew this was inevitable, but couldnt it last a little longer? the other thing delaney has gotten curious about lately is death. what?! and how does a three year old process death? we watched the movie Up not too long ago, and in the movie, the old man's wife passes away. she asked me what that meant, and i explained to her that sometimes when people get really old, and sick, and doctors cant fix them, then they die. although not extremely sure what it means to really not see anyone anymore, she made the connection that when you get old you die. 'oh' she says. about 10 min later, on our drive home, out of the blue, she burst into tears. i asked her what was wrong and she explained to me that grandpa told her tonight that he wears glasses because he is getting old, and his eyes dont work as well anymore. upon rethinking this, she decided that grandpa was getting old, and that meant he would die soon, so she was sobbing so hard, it was hard to calm her down. i didnt know what to say....comfort was obvious, trying to explain that my dad wasnt that old, and that she didnt have to worry about that for a long time. from there, i couldnt say much else, it was just a time for her to learn this lesson about life. sitting in the front seat, helplessly looking back at my daughter, watching her eyes as she processed this, she began to look older. why do sadness and learning age you? but being born is just as normal as dieing. this began time to explain to her the importance of living so completely everyday. this is next on my list.

now, the day is over, and im in the basement, having a glass of wine, and playing online euchre. its the time to clear my head, rejuvenate, and determine myself to get through tomorrow. lead by example, and inspire her to leave a positive legacy.

Today....

Yay for today!

yay interj. used as an exclamation of pleasure, approval, elation, or victory.

i woke up this morning feeling good about today...

do you remember that feeling that you get to buy back to school supplies? picking out your favorite crayola markers, and the 300+ count of crayola crayons...and the pretty new art box to keep them in? the smell of the fresh crayons when you open the box for the first time? choosing the folders that will hold your papers, hoping that lisa frank that the cute puppies and kitties come in 5 different variations for each your class? just so exciting!

i have that kind of anticipation about today.

nothing is too different today. but, it is filled with sewing, and cleaning, and organizing. i also have my first upholstery class tonight.

i am excited to get my studio in order. its hard for me to keep my madness in order. i know that this is a room in the house that belongs to me. and i love it...

the problem is that its hard for me to find time to be in there...and its hard to keep all my supplies in order. so...i bought bookshelves and bins and containers and baskets.... this should do it. i never put anything away because then, i forget that i have it. ive always been the one to spread everything out to see what i have, but that also gets things i lost, i suppose. either way,

organization+beautiful studio=inspiring space

i cant wait to claim the space back to create.

i have also had some hard conversations with the girls this last few weeks that has been heartbreaking parenting. it makes me realize how sad it is how fast real life hits kids in the face. explanations to follow...

so pretty...

I came across this room today, and fell in love.

Another Day is Done...

Today was a pretty uneventful day, but i was thankful for it anyway...

some days, i like to be lazy. i feel that on days that i have lots to do and feel accomplished, i also feel that those are days that i miss out on the girls. i have always had troubles with this. i need to learn balance in my life. i am an indulger...with an obsessive personality. i need to find a way to have days that i can cross things off my to do list, while spending ample time with my family. i will have a week or two when i am highly productive. the house stays clean, the laundry is caught up, and the dishes never sit in the sink. having this all done, i get to spend time in my studio. then there is the other side of me. the lazy side...everything gets backed up....i get embarrassed.

on the positive side, i got two more salon chairs done, dropped off, and two more picked up. the recovering process has been a long time coming, and it just feels good to have that off my shoulders. its amazing how much it changes the look of the salon to have fresh chairs.

i am signing up to take an upholstery class too. i am excited for this. it always is a confidence booster to learn a new skill. i have this little dream.... it would be wonderful someday to own my own boutique. i would sell furniture i have rescued, repainted, and reupholstered, giving it new life. home furnishings, such as handmade pillows, decorations from my collections, and have local artists' goods as well. pottery, paintings, photography, along with personal accessories. i would love this. a little homemade heaven.

we visited borders tonight. i have decided to try and take up reading again. i read so many childrens books in a day, i think its time to do the same for me. i picked up a book called 'Good without God'. i heard it was a good read, so we will see. what i really wanted to do was pick up a copy of Rhoad Dahl's the BFG, and pretend i was a kid again.

now im sitting with Bottlerocket on my chaise contemplating what to do next. cuddle with the kitty and a good book, or make a pot of coffee and get to work on some more chairs?

I have figured out what is essential to a properly written blog...

the answer is a laptop.

i heart blogging...

i think it started in third grade when i was given a Lisa Frank dolphin motif diary for a birthday. since then, i have found it integral to my well being when i can write in my diary. now instead of keeping it private, because it used to be filled with trivial secrets like first kisses and current crushes, i believe that life, being more substantial, is something i would like to share with people. and i have come to learn that handwriting takes to long for me... i will be honest, because i am so involved with making my handwriting 'look pretty' sometimes my ADD makes me loose focus on what i sat down to write about in the first place. so, i have found that a blog makes it all possible. maybe no one will read it.....maybe people will think im crazy.....maybe people will realize that i lack basic vocabulary and punctuation skills....and that i always over use the 'dot dot dots'...

but, anyway....

i used to sit in an uncomfortable wooden chair at an antique desk that my legs wouldnt fit under because the computer sat under there. i would have like to sit and think and contemplate, but i was too distracted by the mess in front of me to accomplish anything productive. but, now i have a laptop. i know that this may be a staple in your home by now, but its new to me! now, i can sit on the comfort of my sofa, or at the island in the kitchen with a cup of coffee....or even upstairs curled up in my bed...or in the basement.... uh...maze...ing.

now i just need some suggestions on blog aesthetics. part of the reason i love sifting through blogs is that i am amazed how much time an effort people put into making it look 'just right'. the properly placed photos...information box...banner.....paired with the painstaking process of compiling just the right set list of music to create the perfect mood for readers. it all adds to up to something just as wonderful to me then the words it contains. maybe its my obsession with the way things look. if i ever had to choose between blindness or deafness.....please take my ears. my eyes are always hungry...